Please Don’t Ask Me That

“If either of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up. Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone?” Ecclesiastes 4:10-11

The scent of sterile overpowered all other senses as I opened the door to the women’s clinic. It was time for that yearly appointment, the one no woman likes to attend. The OBGYN I had gone to for years and who had delivered all three of my children was not on our new insurance list, so the familiar was replaced with a faint hope that this doctor would be normal and this visit would be routinely bland.

Can we just be honest? Women and honest. No one likes to go to the OBGYN…no one. But for a woman who has had an abortion, going to a new OBGYN brings an additional weight in the shape of a question.

The personal history form asks the routine questions about medical history, familial medical history, and pregnancies. But at the OBGYN there is also a question about how many abortions you have had.

Yes, there it was, just as I knew it would be. The question was there and I answered it. It wasn’t a big deal. It is just a piece of paper asking, not a person. Maybe they won’t ask me anything more about that.

The nurse called me back and began going through the paperwork with me. She reviewed different parts of the form and I secretly hoped that would be skipped. Please don’t ask me that.

Why is it that I can write this post where potentially thousands could read it and also share my testimony in front of crowds, but a nurse trained in medical practices asking me a question made me a little nervous?

Thankfully the moment passed and it wasn’t mentioned. A sigh of relief. Then the doctor came in.

The doctor was about my age, had a pleasant look to her and a bright smile. Her relaxed friendly countenance disarmed me and set me at ease. She also began going over my medical history with me. All good. She began asking me about my pregnancies. In my mind, again I thought, “Please don’t ask me.

She did. Then she asked if the abortion was chemical or a DNC. In a gentle factual voice, I replied it was surgical. She professionally asked about how far along I was and when it was.

  1. 11 weeks.

There was no judgement in her voice, just professionally doing her job, asking medical questions a doctor needs to know. I got through it. It was as if she was asking if I had a gallbladder surgery or had my tonsils removed. But that is their job. Perhaps there needs to be more awareness of how abortion impacts women (and men) emotionally and spiritually. From a medical perspective, caring for the whole person.

She was great, sincerely, and I would go back to her. But I have had much healing and I am ok and can answer those questions fairly easily, but not all can. Some leave that question blank to avoid the questions. Some answer it, but then spend part of the day in tears. Others hide behind a strong façade. And to be fair, there may be some who truly don’t mind the question.

Let’s face it, it isn’t a question often asked and abortion isn’t a fun topic. If you want to make people uncomfortable, clear a table or a room, bring up the subject of abortion. Works almost every time.

But just like that doctor needed to talk about it for physical health purposes at this visit, there are times we need to talk about it for emotional and spiritual health check purposes.

Even with this post, for example. If you are post-abortive, pay attention to how this post makes you feel. What emotions are you experiencing right now?

Can you relate to how I was feeling at the doctor’s office? Have you left that part of the form blank in the past? Perhaps you have never told anyone you have had an abortion. If that is you, I want to encourage you today to pray and ask the Lord to give you strength to tell one safe person. If you don’t have a safe person, you can contact us on the Deeper Still Facebook page and message us and tell us. We are safe and we will pray for you. You are not alone. There is a Savior Jesus who cares about what you have been through and there are people out there who care as well.

It may not be a question we want to be asked, but if the answer is yes, there is emotional healing.

Dear Heavenly Father, I pray for those who may have never shared they had an abortion. Father, I pray that you would give them the ability and strength to reach out and share with one safe person. Father, will you begin that healing process today for at least one out there who needs it today. If this post was just for even one, it is worth it. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

If that one is you, will you let us know? We’d love to pray for you.

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Freedom in Knowing the Truth

Know the Truth and the Truth will set you free.” John 8_32

“Know the Truth and the Truth will set you free.” John 8:32

For years I thought this verse above meant that the more I knew the truth in the Word of God, as in memorizing scripture and reading the Bible, the freer I would be.  Although, this is true, I was missing the Source of freedom.  I was coming at it from an academic or educational position instead of relational. 

Let’s back up to the verse right before John 8:32, and read both John 8:31 and 8:32:

“Then Jesus said to the Jews who believed Him, ‘If you abide in My word, you are my disciples indeed. Then, you will know the truth and the truth shall make you free.'” 

The Truth isn’t just something to be studied or words on a page. Truth is a Person.  

Jesus himself said, “I am the way, the Truth, and the life, no man comes to the Father except through me.” (John 14:6, emphasis added)  

When we abide in “The Truth”, we change from a vantage of knowledge to knowing.

Bible study and even being informed and up to date with current events, although good, isn’t necessarily the goal. The Pharisees knew the scriptures, but that did not impress Jesus.  Jesus said to them, “You diligently study the scriptures because you think by them you possess eternal life. These scriptures that testify about me, yet you refuse to come to me to have life.” (John 5:39-40, emphasis added) 

There are many people who diligently study the scriptures, seeking the Word of God to bring them what they desire…prosperity, health, position, or blessings.  Yet, they never know the Truth.  They pile on scriptures like a covering over their heart.  And the very words spoken to penetrate depths and pierce the soul, are blocked due to fear, misguidance, or self-protection.  

The reason we study scripture isn’t just to have Bible knowledge or memorize promises. The reason we read the Bible and study the Word is so we can know the person of Jesus Christ.  

And when we KNOW the person of Jesus Christ, when we KNOW the Truth, then the Truth will set us free. He alone can set us free.  He alone is worthy of all our praise.  And who the Son sets free, is free indeed.  

Happy Freedom Day from all of us at Deeper Still! 

Father, thank you for the freedom we have through Your son Jesus. We thank you that because of the Cross, we can celebrate the freedom found in You alone. We ask for a deeper revelation of who You are and our freedom in You. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.


A Father’s Day Blessing

To Every Man


As the family of God, on this Father’s Day, we want to honor and encourage the stewardship of fathering. We acknowledge that the celebration of this day can be joyful for some and painful for others. But whatever your gains or losses have been regarding your fathering, we are confident that today the Lord is ready and willing to pour out His grace for healing, encouragement, and affirmation on all our men, young and old.

Let’s first acknowledge that God Himself is a father and designed the gift of fatherhood. And He has given the stewardship of fathering to men. What an awesome privilege and responsibility! Father God entrusted Joseph to be Jesus’s earthly father. Joseph probably had his moments of doubt, wondering if he was up to the task, but his simple “yes” and obedience was all that God required; God supplied the rest. This child, Jesus, also needed an earthly father for His physical, emotional, and spiritual development. Even from this example alone, we see how deeply Father God values a father. We would like to pray a father’s blessing over every man reading this today. Whether you have biological children or not, we want to honor your father’s heart and bless you as you father those God brings into your life that need your fathering imprint. We also want to include our single men, our young boys, and even our baby boys in this blessing, for they too will grow up to be fathers someday.

Father God thank you for creating your sons and endowing them with a father’s heart. Thank you that, as image bearers, they too can cry out for a heart like Yours. Today, God, would you pour out your fathering spirit upon all your sons in this place, young and old? Will you expand their hearts and give them the capacity to embrace the stewardship of fathering? Give them courage, strength, vision, wisdom, leadership, and a servant’s heart. Where they have been wounded, would you heal them so they can take up their swords and shields once again and fight for their families? Where they have failed, will you pour out your grace and forgiveness upon them and grant them a new beginning? Where they feel weak and weary, will You show them that You are the great I Am and that You can supply all their needs? Where they feel disqualified, will you show them that they have a place at your table and that you have great Kingdom exploits for them? Would you commission them to go out and find the lost sheep and run to meet the prodigal and to kill the fatted calf for every lost son that comes home? Father God, you hear the cry of the orphan, and You promise to be a father to the fatherless. Will you raise them up to hear the cries and answer the call? We ask for these blessings in the mighty name of Jesus. Amen!

(This Father’s Day blessing was from Karen Ellison’s book Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal, Freedom for the Abortion-Wounded and Help for the Church They Fear .)

Happy Father’s Day to every man. We honor you as a son of Father God and your stewardship as a father!

~Deeper Still


The Great Exchange

I will become what you are. And you will become what I am. (1)

“God made Him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in Him we might become the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus.” 2 Corinthians 5:21

During the Deeper Still weekend retreats, there is a processional ceremony involving tangible symbols that represent an exchange. Ceremonies often involve exchange. A marriage ceremony involves exchanging vows and exchanging one’s own individual life for the sake of giving of oneself to another in a pure and appropriate way. There are ceremonies at a graduation where a graduate is given a certificate that gives an identity of exchange from student to professional. The school has given of its resources and the student has given of him/herself for the end of that exchange.

In essence, what happens in an exchange is an agreement.

The greatest exchange that ever happened was the exchange God the Father made for us, His beloved children–the exchange of His Son’s life for ours. As Jesus willingly laid down His life, that exchange represented Jesus saying, “I will become all that you are. I will take on all your sin and your imperfections. And you will become what I am, with all my righteousness, and all that I am, that we may be grafted together as one.”

Think about that for a moment. Jesus became all that we are. He became sin. He became all our sin. And in exchange, we became all He is. We became the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus. What an incredible exchange. He became our sin and we became His righteousness. We became one with Him, to dwell in Him, to move, live and have our being in Him.

If we truly understood this exchange, how different we would live.

Today, I pray for a deeper understanding of this exchange, all He is for all we are. Our sin, our shame, our brokenness, our issues, our bondage…He takes all of it and in exchange, we are made righteous, blameless, pure, honored, whole, free.

It doesn’t seem right, so we think surely that cannot be all, there must be more, something else we need to do. But no, there isn’t anything else needed. Nothing else needs to be added. Jesus declared, “It is finished.” And it was. The exchange was complete and we were made new.

However, just as a husband and wife live in the freedom and blessing of their new covenant and the new graduate has a degree representing exchange, it doesn’t do any good unless they believe their new identities and act on it.

That is our responsibility, to believe our new identity and live as we are in Christ, righteous, and free.

What if after you received your degree in medicine, someone came up to you and said, “You know, you really aren’t a doctor. I mean I saw who you were in high school and you did get a C that one time.” You’d say, “I have the certificate to prove it and I am a doctor.”  We have an enemy of our souls who will lie to us and tell us we haven’t really been made righteous, and besides look what you did and who you are. Jesus says, “I took what you did and now you have become what I am. It has been paid in full.”

It takes a renewing of the mind to believe this and over time the enemy loses his hold and can no longer lie because you won’t believe him. You can hold up your “Certificate” and say, “I am righteous, it has been paid in full! I am a new creation in Christ Jesus. And I have the certificate (the word of God) to prove it!”

If you have had an abortion, or there is another sin in your life that has kept you in bondage and left you feeling unworthy, there is Hope, and His name is Jesus. This sin doesn’t define you. If you have accepted Jesus, then there is an exchange of identity. He took your old and gave you His. Praying for you today to know this great exchange and for it to be real for you.

Jesus, give us a deeper revelation of all You died to give us, all You have, and all You are that we are now because of You, and this exchange. Amen.

If you or someone you know has had an abortion and needs healing, please visit our website at to find out more about our healing retreats. More information is also on our Facebook page Deeper Still and Instagram at GoDeeperStill



Mother’s Day Blessing

A Mother's Day Blessing

As the family of God, on this Mother’s Day, we want to honor and encourage the stewardship of mothering. We acknowledge that the celebration of this day can be joyful for some and painful for others. But whatever your gains or losses have been regarding your mothering, we are confident that, today, the Lord is ready and willing to pour out His grace for healing, encouragement, and affirmation on all our ladies here today, young and old.

Let’s first acknowledge that God Himself designed the gift of motherhood. He sent His own Son into this world, born of a woman, knowing that for this child’s physical, emotional, and spiritual development he would need an earthly mother. Even from this example alone, we see how deeply Father God values a mother.

We would like to pray a mother’s blessing over every lady reading this today. Whether you have physically borne children or not, we want to honor your mothering heart and want to bless you as you mother those God brings into your life that need your mothering touch. We also want to include our single women, our young girls, and even our baby girls who will grow up to be mothers someday.

Father God, thank you for creating your daughters to possess the heart of a mother and for giving them the ability to nurture life and to care for those you put in their path that need their mothering touch. Will you bless them to be fruitful and prosperous in all the ways that they mother? Will you give them wisdom and grace as they extend their mothering touch to others? For those who have experienced loss and hope deferred, will you bring them healing and encouragement? For those who are waiting and watching for your promises to be fulfilled give them peace and perseverance. And for our young who will be mothers someday, lead them in the way of righteousness and keep their hearts tender and teachable. Lord, we need godly mothers to raise the generations to come and to bring healing to the orphan’s cry. We thank you, God, that you watch over your word to perform it and that you will do exceedingly abundantly beyond all we can ask or think. So we ask for these blessings in the mighty name of Jesus. Amen!

This blessing is an excerpt from Karen Ellison’s book Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal.


You Belong at Jesus’ Table

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“You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.” Psalm 23:5

The warmth of summer approaching brushed our shoulders as five Jesus loving ladies gathered for lunch. On the way to meet, text messages began to come saying, “On my way”, “Me too”, “Same”, as all of us but one ran late. The one on time sent a message saying, “I got a table for us.” 

One of the friends responded, “Like Jesus.

Yes, isn’t that so like Jesus? If you knew this friend, she indeed is so “like Jesus”. 

Jesus would get the table, and it would be the perfect table. 

Jesus not only gets the table, but He also prepares it. 

On the night Jesus was betrayed, Jesus and His disciples sat at a table. At this most famous table depicted in countless paintings throughout time, Jesus instituted communion and talked of the new covenant which we, as believers, now joyfully share. 

“Jesus took bread, blessed and broke it, and gave it to the disciples and said, ‘Take, eat; this is My body.’ Then He took the cup, and gave thanks, and gave it to them, saying, ‘Drink from it, all of you. For this is My blood of the new covenant, which is shed for many for the remission of sins.'” Matthew 26:26-27

All of us are faced with a choice as we see the table prepared and set before us. We can choose to receive the blessings set before us or we can choose to turn away from the table out of feelings of unworthiness to come to the table. 

When meeting with my friends, what if I would have arrived, saw the table my friend has reserved, all of them sitting there enjoying the beauty of the outside perfect Spring day, and joyfully fellowshipping, and then thought, “You know, I’m not dressed up enough” or “I don’t feel worthy to come to this table” or “All of those Jesus loving ladies probably have it all together, I can’t come to the table.” What if I just left? 

The very thought brings a dreary drizzle to the warm Spring sunshiny day. 

Not one of those thoughts entered my mind. Why didn’t they? Because I knew I belonged at that table. 

And if Jesus is our Lord, Savior, and friend, we belong at His table. But how many times do we walk away, leave the table, and all of the blessings of the table on the table as we allow the lies in our mind keep us from receiving all the blessings the Lord has prepared for us on the table in a gourmet spread. 

This weekend, Deeper Still has five retreats occurring in five different states. Those with abortion wounds often feel unworthy to come to the table to receive all the Lord has for them to receive. Will you pray with us for these women and men coming to these retreats to come to the table and receive every blessing the Lord has for them this weekend? Thank you! 

Father, we thank you that we are welcome and belong at Your table. Lord, we pray for these participants going to retreats all across this nation to find deep healing from the wounds of abortion and to be set free from the bondages of guilt and shame. Lord, may your sun (Son) shine on their shoulders and the warmth of your loving presence fill every retreat so nothing is left at the table, and may they receive every blessing. In Jesus’ Name, Amen. 

If you need healing from an abortion, please go to for more information about our retreats. Also Karen Ellison’s book Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal is an excellent resource for healing. 


Unplanned Movie- To see or Not to See


The movie Unplanned debuted a couple weeks ago. Prior the movie release, the air was filled with buzz and promotion including this blog space advertising it’s arrival with eager anticipation and expectation, encouraging all to see it.

The day after the movie opened in our city, a group from the Deeper Still ministry went together to see the movie. I wasn’t able to go with my tribe that day due to a prior commitment but would have gone without hesitation.

A couple days later I received a text from a post-abortive friend asking if I had seen the movie. She asked if she should go or if it would trigger her into a tailspin of emotions. It was at this moment that I came in touch with a reality unprocessed up until that point—how real and close to home this movie might hit me.

What was once a non-negotiable determination drifted quite suddenly into a flight response.

After debating, I determined the captivity of fear had conquered long enough. Taking up my courage (along with three very loving friends), I decided to go. Together we braved the theater– my husband on one side of me, and a dear friend and her husband on the other.

To be truthful, it was hard—not the entire movie, but a few parts. There was one part in particular where I held onto my husband’s hand and my friend’s hand at the same time and sobbed.  But when it was all said and done, I can wholeheartedly say I’m glad I saw it and plan to take my sixteen-year-old son this weekend at his request.

This movie shows a truth that needs to be told. If you are post-abortive, yes, be aware this may and probably will trigger emotions in you. Possibly even bring emotions to the surface that have been buried deep for years or decades. But those emotions being felt and recognized are better than them being tucked away in a closet of your heart seeping out into your behaviors and interactions with others. It may feel safer to avoid and keep the pain inside, but long term it isn’t good or healthy. Emotional trauma has all matters of negative effects on the body (physically, emotionally, and/or mentally.) Abortion is an enormous physical, emotional, and spiritual trauma.

I believe the Holy Spirit will meet you in your place of greatest need.  If you have had an abortion, He will meet you in this movie and begin the healing journey. Or if you’d had some healing, take you deeper in healing. Deeper Still is a ministry that holds healing retreats for women who have had abortions and the men who fathered those children who were aborted. Our retreats are free of charge and if you are in need of healing from an abortion, we’d love to walk with you during this healing journey.

The Lord is full of mercy and compassion and fully wants His sons and daughters healed and set free. This movie is setting in motion an awareness of the need for healing. Sometimes the wounds of our hearts have become a thorn we have grown accustomed to living with, leaving us unaware to the devastating impact on our lives. The Holy Spirit will at the proper time allow pain to surface beyond what we had become use to enduring, as an indicator of the need for healing.

Perhaps the Holy Spirit has brought pain to the surface through seeing the movie Unplanned or even just this blogpost. Whatever the catalyst, the Lord doesn’t waste our pain, nor does He despise it. He is very much in tune to our pain and His aim and desire is always to heal.

Please go to today to find out about our healing retreats in various parts of the country in April.  Also, a good place to start finding healing until you can attend a retreat is through Karen Ellison’s book, Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal, available on the Deeper Still website or Amazon.

We want you to find healing, but more importantly the Lord Jesus wants you healed and set free from the bondages of sin and captivity. May each person in need of healing find it. The Lord will meet you in your greatest need in a way greater than you could ever have expected. His love for you is beyond compare. He is calling.

“Sing O heavens! Be joyful, O earth! And break out in singing, O mountains! For the Lord has comforted His people, and will have mercy on His afflicted.” Isaiah 49:13

Father, we thank you that you comfort your people and have mercy on the afflicted. Father, bring healing to the parts of my heart that need your loving care and give mercy in my greatest need. Bring understanding and enlighten my awareness of your love, even in the darkest places. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

Abortion Fatigue

Riley Lord's drawing

“And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.” Galations 6:9

In the news, on social media, we are constantly bombarded with messages. There is no escaping the articles, opinions, and even blog posts about abortion and choice. This message may be the single most polarizing on the planet when it comes to discussing our views with our fellow mankind.

I get it…the fatigue, the complacency, the scrolling over. In fact, there are times when I get tired. Tired of the fight. Tired of the talk. Tired of putting myself and the truth found in God’s Holy Word out there again and again and again. And I think, enough already.

Today I was discussing this very thought with my Father, not my earthly dad, but my heavenly Dad.

“Lord, people are tired of hearing about this…”

But then, that voice…,you know, the familiar still small voice that calms our hearts and centers our soul, spoke to my spirit and simply asked me a question.

“Is the Father tired of hearing about it? Is the Lord tired of talking about it?”

Immediately, I knew the answer. Oh Father, forgive me. No, you are not tired of hearing about it, you are not tired of fighting for it, you are not tired of talking about it. You do not grow weary. You do not lose heart. All this. Life. The unborn, image-bearers created in the image of God are very much on the heart of the Father. No, He will never grow weary of talking about His beloved creation, and how precious they are to Him. His beloved are worthy of our words.

Then the Lord reminded me of a picture a friend of mine posted on social media the day prior…a picture her thirteen-year-old daughter had drawn– the picture above. The Lord used the beautifully detailed artwork of a thirteen-year-old by the name of Riley Lord to affirm in that moment that not only are the unborn on the Father’s heart, they are held close to Him, and knit together by His hands.

How the Lord loves his children and uses children of all ages to speak His truth.

“For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well.” Psalm 139: 13-14

God is not tired of this topic and if He is not, then neither should we nor the church.

I would like to share with you about a much anticipated movie being released this week nationwide that every person needs to see. This movie is Unplanned. You can find out more information at .  This movie will also shed more light on the truth of this topic.

Let us not grow weary in well-doing my friends. Let us stay closely in tune to what is on the heart of the Father, and ever close to what He holds dear in His hands.

Father, that is our prayer today, let us not grow weary in well-doing. Father, keep our hearts beating fast in line with your heart. Lord, may we not tire of truth. May we champion the cause of life and be a light sharing your message of truth, love, and the value of Your beloved, those You carefully and lovingly knit together in the palms of Your hands. They are indeed worthy of our words. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

 Go to to learn more about the Deeper Still ministry and our healing retreats. You can also find and purchase Karen Ellison’s book Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal on our website.


Life in the Church

This post is written by the President and Founder of Deeper Still, Karen Ellison. Karen has a book that just came out called Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal, Freedom for the Abortion-Wounded and Help for the Church They Fear.

The sanctity of human life has been a defining battle in the 21st century

For the church to turn the tide on the culture of death, the theology of the sanctity of human life needs to be at the core of doctrinal orthodoxy. The sanctity of human life is not a fringe doctrine, or a specialized side issue to address once a year on Sanctity of Human Life Sunday. It is a part of basic Christian discipleship and service. This means the church needs to help us develop a mindset for the sanctity of human life.

Dear pastor, we sincerely need to hear from you—but not just you—we need to hear from your elders, those gatekeepers who guard the orthodoxy and doctrines of the church. When they weigh in, it matters. Are your youth pastors and your young adult pastors openly addressing the sanctity of human life and human sexuality? Are these truths and teachings permeating every sphere of your church culture? 

A disturbing segmenting has developed in the Church over the years. You have your Christians, and then you have your pro-life Christians. This ought not to be. Some are particularly gifted for and specifically called to certain pro-life outreaches, but as far as how we identify ourselves, what we teach, our discipleship models, and the ways we serve and give our finances, we should be weaving an open and life-affirming culture within the entire fabric of our faith community.

If our spiritual leaders embrace these things, then we will begin to see women and men start to come out of the closet and trust you for help. It will start with a few, but when they gain their healing, then they will get their heart back and then their voice back, and once they get their voice, they will be able to expose the truth behind abortion and the lies that keep people bound.

Consider these verses:

I have told the glad news of deliverance in the great congregation; behold, I have not restrained my lips, as you know, O Lord. I have not hidden your deliverance within my heart; I have spoken of your faithfulness and your salvation; I have not concealed your steadfast love and your faithfulness from the great congregation. (Psalm 40:9–10)

But when hearts are still bound by underlying guilt, shame, and grief, then much of their service is driven by performance and the need to prove something to you, God, themselves, and others.

I am fully convinced and convicted that when abortion-wounded men and women who are Christ followers accept the Lord’s invitation to go deeper still in their journey to healing and lasting freedom, then we will see an army arise. This army will be made up of mighty warriors who can advocate for the lives of unborn children.

But at present, that segment of the Bride of Christ considers itself unfit for the end-time church adventure. She believes that the glorious end-time in-gathering of the saints yet to be saved will be the inheritance of more worthy Christians. But I am confident that this soon and coming Bridegroom is fiercely committed not only to her redemption, but He will do anything to gain her affections and trust. He is coming for a bride without spot or wrinkle, and He will rescue her from the vicious pimp that stole her away and then enslaved her.

When the Bride of Christ regains her identity and gets her voice back, she will become empowered to take up the charge for those who can’t speak for themselves. Right now, most of this army is like the living dead.

This Bride needs shepherds who will recognize that she has been taken captive and enslaved by another master. She may be sitting in the pew every Sunday morning, and he may be serving as a Sunday morning greeter, but their sense of personal destiny and contribution in the things of God and His Kingdom are superficial.

The Church in every generation has had its defining battles to fight and its causes to champion. In this 21st century, the sanctity of human life is surely one of these defining issues.

If we lock arms, together we can prepare this Bride for her Bridegroom.

– Karen A. Ellison,

Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal, Freedom for the Abortion-Wounded and Help for the Church they Fear

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Living in an Abortion-Wounded World

A worldview devoid of the fundamental truth of the value of life will treat its people differently.

This post is written by the President and Founder of Deeper Still, Karen Ellison. Karen has a book that just came out called Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal, Freedom for the Abortion-Wounded and Help for the Church They Fear.

The United States accounts for fewer than 2% of the world’s annual abortions. Internationally, statistics reveal anywhere from 42 to 56 million abortions occur every year. As mind-numbing as those numbers are, we can’t just ignore them as if that reality is someone else’s problem.

 If what I’ve described in this book and the testimonies I’ve shared are a microcosm of what’s going on in the hearts, minds, and lives of billions of people around the world every day of every year, then we have a huge global crisis. The truth is we live in an abortion-wounded world. It’s a deadly blight on the peoples and the nations of the earth, but this affliction is a hidden one.

Whether someone chose an abortion or an abortion was forced upon them, no one wants to go public with their inner torment. This affliction is not recognized as a crisis in our world like starvation, disease, or even sex trafficking, but it is every bit as deadly to the soul and the spirit of the nations. Deeper Still has had opportunities to minister in some international settings, and our materials have been used in many others.  We have had participants from Africa, South America, Eastern Europe, and Asia. We have a lot to learn from each other, but we observed early on that we all shed the same tears over our sorrows. We all need the same Savior.

LIFE International is a wonderful ministry that has directly taken the message and theology of the sanctity of human life into 64 nations and has influence and materials in close to 90 nations, Praise God for this pioneering movement to reach the other 98% of the abortion-vulnerable world. In recent years, LIFE International has used a version of our Deeper Still materials as part of their abortion healing training in 29 countries. They, too, have witnessed firsthand that although people come from different cultures, traditions, and worldviews, certain things are universal and cripple people the world over. These are things like guilt, shame, grief, regret, fear, anger, and hopelessness.

The abortion-wounded heart is found in every tongue and tribe, and many of those people have no knowledge of a God who would have great compassion on them if they would just call upon His name. He wants to heal them and free them from the shackles that have them bound. But He also wants to renew their minds with the truth that their offspring are heaven sent and should be considered their most treasured resource and inheritance.

A worldview devoid of the fundamental truth of the value of life will treat its people differently. Instead of being valued intrinsically, the question is are you an asset or a liability to our society?

The testimony of so many abortion-wounded people is this: “it affected every area of my life.” If you think about all the women and men in the world who have participated in abortion, and if they, too, are living with these consequences in every area of their lives, then addressing their abortion-wounded heart could revolutionize their lives, not to mention their nation.

What if it was part of the strategic ministry plan for every missionary organization and every church planter to not only plant churches for the sake of getting the gospel into foreign lands and for getting people saved, but, in addition, as part of their core discipleship strategy, they would teach people the theology of the sanctity of human life? When people have knowledge of biblical truths, then the Holy Spirit can begin to work. When the Holy Spirit is given access to people’s hearts and begins to renew their minds, then they begin to get convicted about the spiritual strongholds and idols that have held them captive.

– Karen A. Ellison,

Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal, Freedom for the Abortion-Wounded and Help for the Church they Fear

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Father, we live in an abortion-wounded world. We know you see every heart and every heartache. Father, we ask for your providential strategy and provision to reach across the globe to minister to those suffering from the pain of abortion. Heal their hearts. Heal the nations. In Jesus’ Mighty Name, Amen.