Living in an Abortion-Wounded World

A worldview devoid of the fundamental truth of the value of life will treat its people differently.

This post is written by the President and Founder of Deeper Still, Karen Ellison. Karen has a book that just came out called Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal, Freedom for the Abortion-Wounded and Help for the Church They Fear.

The United States accounts for fewer than 2% of the world’s annual abortions. Internationally, statistics reveal anywhere from 42 to 56 million abortions occur every year. As mind-numbing as those numbers are, we can’t just ignore them as if that reality is someone else’s problem.

 If what I’ve described in this book and the testimonies I’ve shared are a microcosm of what’s going on in the hearts, minds, and lives of billions of people around the world every day of every year, then we have a huge global crisis. The truth is we live in an abortion-wounded world. It’s a deadly blight on the peoples and the nations of the earth, but this affliction is a hidden one.

Whether someone chose an abortion or an abortion was forced upon them, no one wants to go public with their inner torment. This affliction is not recognized as a crisis in our world like starvation, disease, or even sex trafficking, but it is every bit as deadly to the soul and the spirit of the nations. Deeper Still has had opportunities to minister in some international settings, and our materials have been used in many others.  We have had participants from Africa, South America, Eastern Europe, and Asia. We have a lot to learn from each other, but we observed early on that we all shed the same tears over our sorrows. We all need the same Savior.

LIFE International is a wonderful ministry that has directly taken the message and theology of the sanctity of human life into 64 nations and has influence and materials in close to 90 nations, Praise God for this pioneering movement to reach the other 98% of the abortion-vulnerable world. In recent years, LIFE International has used a version of our Deeper Still materials as part of their abortion healing training in 29 countries. They, too, have witnessed firsthand that although people come from different cultures, traditions, and worldviews, certain things are universal and cripple people the world over. These are things like guilt, shame, grief, regret, fear, anger, and hopelessness.

The abortion-wounded heart is found in every tongue and tribe, and many of those people have no knowledge of a God who would have great compassion on them if they would just call upon His name. He wants to heal them and free them from the shackles that have them bound. But He also wants to renew their minds with the truth that their offspring are heaven sent and should be considered their most treasured resource and inheritance.

A worldview devoid of the fundamental truth of the value of life will treat its people differently. Instead of being valued intrinsically, the question is are you an asset or a liability to our society?

The testimony of so many abortion-wounded people is this: “it affected every area of my life.” If you think about all the women and men in the world who have participated in abortion, and if they, too, are living with these consequences in every area of their lives, then addressing their abortion-wounded heart could revolutionize their lives, not to mention their nation.

What if it was part of the strategic ministry plan for every missionary organization and every church planter to not only plant churches for the sake of getting the gospel into foreign lands and for getting people saved, but, in addition, as part of their core discipleship strategy, they would teach people the theology of the sanctity of human life? When people have knowledge of biblical truths, then the Holy Spirit can begin to work. When the Holy Spirit is given access to people’s hearts and begins to renew their minds, then they begin to get convicted about the spiritual strongholds and idols that have held them captive.

– Karen A. Ellison,

Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal, Freedom for the Abortion-Wounded and Help for the Church they Fear

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Father, we live in an abortion-wounded world. We know you see every heart and every heartache. Father, we ask for your providential strategy and provision to reach across the globe to minister to those suffering from the pain of abortion. Heal their hearts. Heal the nations. In Jesus’ Mighty Name, Amen.

What’s in a Name

But I love your feet only because the walked upon the earth and upon the wind and upon the waters, until they found me.

Today’s post is written by the President and Founder of Deeper Still, Karen Ellison. Karen has a book that just came out called Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal, Freedom for the Abortion-Wounded and Help for the Church They Fear.

The first time I visited the National Memorial for the Unborn, I was taken aback by how deeply it affected me. I knew it was going to be profound, but I think I was surprised by how strongly I felt the presence of Jesus. Even as I first stepped over the threshold before I even got to the wall of names, tears began to well up in my eyes. I knew I was on holy ground. As my husband and I walked into the room of the wall of names, it took my breath away. We spent the next hour just silently reading the names and the epitaphs and looking at the letters and gifts people had left on the granite shelf.

I think the reason I sensed Jesus’ presence so strongly that day was because He was and is so pleased that a group of people took the time, money, and effort to create a space and a place to honor those children that the world discards without a second thought. In Jesus’ eyes, these children have names and identities and are now full of eternal destiny.

These children were not war heroes. They didn’t accomplish some major feat the world would acclaim. They did not even die from a disease where family and friends spent many long hours in the hospital praying for them and loving them before they had to finally let them go. The only thing these children brought to their existence is that Father God created them and began to knit them together in the womb of their mothers here on earth. From our perspective, they were a liability, but from heaven’s perspective, they were full of destiny.

I think that’s why the affirmation of Jesus’ presence is so strong in that little plot of land in Chattanooga. It’s because some of God’s people valued these children that were heaven sent but earth rejected and saw to it that they could be honored by displaying their names.

The Bible says in 1 Corinthians 2:14, “The natural person does not accept the things of the Spirit of God, for they are foolish to him and he is not able to understand them because they are spiritually discerned.”

1 Corinthians 1:27-29 states, “But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong.”

Aren’t you glad you were honored enough to have been given something as simple as a name? If you have a name, you matter. Isaiah 43:1 says God calls us by name. Have you ever read the pages and pages of genealogies in the Bible? I know they have historical significance, but I wonder if the Lord had all those names recorded so that we, millennia later, would understand that these were real people that made Biblical history and the Lord knows them all by name. We are not some random existential biological composite that emerged out of nothingness. By no means!

We were created by a faithful and intentional Heavenly Father who knit us together in our mother’s womb, who breathed into us the breath of life, and who dignified us with a name.

– Karen A. Ellison,

Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal, Freedom for the Abortion-Wounded and Help for the Church they Fear (Click on to learn more or to order on )

Father, forgive us, forgive us as a nation for not cherishing what you called treasured. Forgive us for choosing our own rights and destiny instead of trusting you with each of these precious ones you ordained for life before even the world we live in and enjoy was spoken into existence. Who are we to think we can take a life when you, oh Lord, are the giver of life.  Oh Lord, forgive us, heal the hearts of the people in our land and turn hearts to value what you value.  In Jesus’ Name, Amen. 

Three Primary Emotions of Abortion-Wounds

Jesus doesn’t just validate our losses— He heals them.

Today’s post is written by the President and Founder of Deeper Still, Karen Ellison. Karen has a book that just came out called Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal, Freedom for the Abortion-Wounded and Help for the Church They Fear.

People with abortion-wounded hearts who are ready to acknowledge that something is not right in their soul will easily name at least three primary emotions that haunt them: guilt, shame, and grief. I certainly would have named those three, but, to me, they felt deeper than just emotions; they became more like conditions of my heart.

Guilt: A moral condition that produces guilty feelings. When we break one of God’s moral laws, we feel guilt because we are guilty. The human soul was not created to carry the weight of moral guilt. We can’t just brush it off. It requires a recompense, an atonement, or a punishment.

Shame: It’s the companion of guilt and part of the consequence of moral guilt. Shame kind of feels like it sounds. It’s heavy, it’s slimy, it covers you, and it’s full of accusation. Shame begins to redefine you and tries to tell you who you are and who you are not. Shame is demanding, and, eventually, it intertwines with your personality and tries to convince you it’s just part of who you are, so just accept it and move on.

Grief: Unspecific grief is like a dreary day. There’s a constant drizzle to it, but it never really ends; unlike a storm that comes in with thunder, lighting, and rain. It does what storms do and then it leaves. And once it moves on, the sky clears and the sun comes out. Grieving that is not redemptive or tied to a specific loss will not go away but will turn into a lingering depression and despair.

Guilt, shame, and grief can rotate like a vicious tornadic cycle. Until this vicious triad is broken apart, it will never dissipate. For an abortion-wounded heart to be freed from this vicious triad, there first needs to be a spiritual reconciliation with God to remove the moral guilt. When this happens our hearts are cleansed, softened, and submitted to God. This is how our heart gets circumcised. And just like the Lord promised the children of Israel in Joshua 5:7–9, He said after they crossed the Jordan and were circumcised, God would roll away the reproach (or shame) of Egypt from their hearts. When you are carrying guilt and shame from an abortion, your grief can never be legitimized or validated because it is muddled in with all that guilt and shame. Therefore, you can never experience pure grief. But once your conscience has been cleared of the moral guilt and once your reproach and that stifling shame have been washed away, then you are free to acknowledge your loss. You can then recognize that your loss was not a just blob of tissue but a baby, and not just any baby, but your baby. What an amazing gift that Jesus Christ has given us through His sacrifice and suffering. He made a way to pay for our debt, change our heart, reconcile our relationships, and validate our losses. But He doesn’t just validate them— He heals them. His compassion is deep and wide and able to absorb our pain. He is the God of all comfort. He longs to comfort us in our losses.

Through Him, we can experience redemptive grieving. When our abortion-wounded grieving is redemptive, then we are empowered to give back to our children—not from a place of guilt but from a place of moral clarity and selfless honor. We can now see them from the new vantage point of a restored heart. We can give them our mother’s or father’s blessing, and we can give them their names. We can bless them with the honor and dignity of a name.

-Karen A. Ellison, Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal, Freedom for the Abortion-Wounded and Help for the Church they Fear.

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Men Awake

Today’s post is written by the President and Founder of Deeper Still, Karen Ellison. Karen has a book that just came out called Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal, Freedom for the Abortion-Wounded and Help for the Church They Fear.

Let the sea set you free.


HE GOT TO HIS FEET during our prayer meeting, and with fresh conviction, passion, and authority, he announced, “Awake, Awake, Awake!” We were gathered to pray about men and abortion. We were seeking the Lord and asking Him to move in the hearts of men around the world. This movement needs their leadership for sure, but the most important step before they can be effective leaders is that they too must submit to the surgeon’s knife of the Great Physician and allow their hearts to be healed and set free from the ravages of abortion.

Their abortion-wounded hearts keep them from having a mindset for entering this battle in a redemptive and restorative way. Much ground has been lost, as our men and brothers have lost their sense of identity as men, fathers, protectors, providers, and leaders. We cannot turn the tide on our culture of death until our men lock arms with us women and together we begin to rebuild the ancient ruins. One of the promises God gives us when we say yes to His restoration plan is that “they shall build up the ancient ruins; they shall raise up the former devastations; they shall repair the ruined cities, the devastations of many generations” (Isaiah 61:4).  

The abortion debate goes on and on, year after year, and rarely is it even considered that a man would—or should— have a legitimate voice in this debate. If a male politician, for example, speaks out to defend the life of the unborn, he is immediately jumped on, politically castrated, and accused of hating women. If men are not secure in their identity as leaders and protectors of the innocent, and if they don’t have a clear understanding that they have been commissioned by their creator to fight for our families, then they will be paralyzed into passivity. If men take their identity cues from the angry, wounded (albeit well-intentioned from their worldview perspective) feminist voice of the culture, they will conclude that not only do they not have a right to enlist in this army, but it will be a lot safer for them to stay home and mind their own business.

In his mind, he’s not sure how to separate the mission of protecting the life and well-being of women and children from the female who stands before him with claws out and insisting that he doesn’t have a dog in this fight. If she confronts or challenges his position (even if her debate tactics include barbs and sarcasm), it is generally viewed as fair game. If, on the other hand, that man confronts or challenges her position, it is viewed as an attack or worse. But the underlying assumption seems to be that men, in general, are too clueless or obtuse to understand what would be a benevolent solution for women and children in crisis—so stay out of it!

For Christ-followers, we know that the real enemy is first spiritual. We know that we fight forces that are not flesh and blood but are spiritual powers and principalities in heavenly places. We also fight sin in the heart and mind, which all amounts to enmity between the sexes. I recently heard a metaphor that sounded fresh and hopeful to me. If women are pink and men are blue, what do you get when you mix pink and blue? You get purple. Purple is one of those colors of God. It reflects His rich beauty, strength, and royalty. It also reveals the royal standing of those of us who are His sons and daughters. I think there’s great hope for a battle strategy that entails enlisting the best of the feminine heart with the best of the masculine. Then we can identify the real enemy, clarify our mission, and gain back the ground we’ve lost. Only then will the army of God be complete and equipped to defeat the spirit of child sacrifice as it manifests itself in our day and age. Together we can work to heal the ravages of those with blood on their hands, and those who have abortion-wounded hearts.

– Karen A. Ellison,

Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal, Freedom for the Abortion-Wounded and Help for the Church they Fear (Click on to learn more or to order on

Father, we ask for our men to awake and arise to join in fighting for life. We pray our men would step into their real identity as protectors, warriors, champions of defending the innocent, and leaders of their families. Lord, may our men awake in our country to be the husbands, sons, and fathers you’ve called them to be. And may we as women lock arms with our men, as one with them, in unity to advance the culture of life and the Kingdom of God. In Jesus’ Name, Amen. 




What the Church Needs to Know


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Today’s post is written by the President and Founder of Deeper Still, Karen Ellison. Karen has a book that was just released called Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal, Freedom for the Abortion-Wounded and Help for the Church They Fear.

“MAYBE YOU SHOULDN’T BE SO HARD ON YOURSELF.” These were the words I heard coming from the pastor I had just confessed my abortion to and to whom I had just poured out my heart. His response initially left me feeling stunned. I’m sure I had a puzzled look on my face. But within seconds, I could feel my soul shrinking back like a wave that recedes from the shore. I was expectant or hopeful that my desperate heart would receive some profound morsel that would have satisfied my hunger for relief. But what I got felt like a sip of sugar water.

It takes a lot of emotional willpower to pour out your story to a stranger. But when it’s a pastor, you have certain expectations that he will give you the words of life that your desperate soul needs to hear. Now, in this man’s defense, my mother and I had no relationship with this clergyman. Our shame-filled, abortion-wounded hearts would not dare seek out a spiritual shepherd that knew us or was invested in our spiritual health. We took the cowardly path of anonymity, hoping we would find the words of life we needed from a random man with a collar.

After he told me I shouldn’t be so hard on myself, he then said that the church (referring to his denomination) had not yet taken a position on abortion. The implication was that abortion is a gray area, so don’t jump to any self-condemning conclusions until we get this thing figured out. I was a 22-year-old heartbroken young lady, grieving and feeling as if I’d forfeited all the good things God had for me in life, but in that moment, I felt as if I should turn the table and be the one to minister to this pastor and help him understand what abortion really is and what it does to people. I believe he was a good and caring man. I believe he heard my story and was filled with compassion for me. And he in no way condemned me or tried to put any legalistic yoke upon me. But he also didn’t see my deepest need, nor did he — know how to speak to it. For me to hear that I shouldn’t be so hard on myself was like a man of God telling me that “the blood stain on your hands was really not that bad, and yes, you’ve been through something hard but you’re young and you have your whole life in front of you, so don’t fret; it’s going to be okay.”

So why didn’t those words satisfy? What did I need to hear from that shepherd that day? I believe I simply needed to hear and be convinced of this: that the blood shed by the Lord Jesus Christ on the cross was sufficient to pay my debt and that His blood speaks louder than the blood of my children that cries out from the ground. It’s that truth that will lift the yoke of bondage, set the captive free, and will breathe new life into a deflated soul. Receiving that truth would not have been the end of my healing journey, but it certainly would have been a beginning.

If you are a pastor, my hope is that you will take encouragement in this: Your influence, both through your teachings and through the corporate intercession of your leadership, will make a difference in the decisions people make, even if it’s without your knowledge. You and your leaders can create a safe environment for your lambs to be rescued from the thicket if you bring forth the hard truth about abortion and couple it with your shepherding heart of love, mercy, and grace.

A pastor has the influence to affirm this new season of healing, wholeness, and integration into the body. I cannot overstate how significant a pastor’s invitation and affirmation will be in this person’s life as they find their place in the body.

I fully acknowledge that you have a tough job. You want to speak the truth in love, but it’s hard to know how to do that when, statistically speaking, maybe a third of the women and men in your congregations have been involved with abortion in one way or another. Because no matter how lovingly and grace-filled you try to address the subject of abortion, the truth is that many cannot hear it. People with abortion-wounded hearts have a grid of condemnation and shame, and everything they hear about abortion gets filtered through that grid. And trust me, they are squirming in their seats even if they appear unphased on the outside. But here’s my encouragement—please don’t choose to avoid it because some may not yet receive your grace. You can expose that it’s the strongholds of shame and condemnation that keep them bound and unable to confess their sin and receive redemption and healing. When we’re wounded, we let those strongholds define how we hear the message of salvation, forgiveness, and deliverance. Sometimes just calling out the elephants in the room will cause those elephants to bow before the powerful name of Jesus Christ.

Would you be willing to ask your congregation to put away their own sense of taboo about talking about abortion and be committed to becoming a caring and healing community. These shifts will begin to change the atmosphere regarding abortion and the rules of the engagement so these men and women can find healing and freedom.

 – Karen A. Ellison,

Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal, Freedom for the Abortion-Wounded and Help for the Church they Fear (Click on to learn more or to order on Amazon.)

 Lord, we pray for the church to be enlightened to the truth. We pray for those sitting in our congregations to find healing and freedom from abortion-wounds. Lord, help your people and bring freedom and healing to this abortion-wounded world. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.



Hope and Healing for the Abortion-Wounded

“The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me, because he Lord has anointed me to preach good tidings to the poor; He has sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those who are bound.” Isaiah 61:1

Dear Heavenly Father, how will they know if we do not speak. How will they know unless we raise our voices. You were sent to heal the brokenhearted, to speak and shout about liberty to the captives, and open the prison for those who have been bound. Oh Lord, may we find our courage to speak boldly and proclaim your truth for the healing of the broken and deliverance of the captives. Father, heal your beloved and set your people free. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

Lisa Davis is the Deeper Still Chapter Leader of Northern Indiana. Lisa resides in Fort Wayne, Indiana with her husband Mike of thirty-three year. She has been working in post-abortion healing ministry for over twenty years.

Thank you Lisa for sharing a part of your story today and proclaiming the good news to the captives. The truth can only come about when we use our freed voices and share the hope and healing found in Jesus Christ, our Lord.

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I’m sure you heard the news. New York legalized abortion up to birth. However, New York is not the first. According to The Guttmacher Institute, seven other states and the District of Columbia already allow for abortion up to birth. These legislators are not hiding behind some idea that the unborn baby is not human. Rather, they place the decision of the mother before the rights of the baby. They are essentially saying that women need, and in fact, want abortion. They believe abortion is good for women. 

How is it they have come to believe this? I will tell you that after twenty years of working in the ministry to women who have had abortions, the vast majority of them would rather never breathe a word about their abortions to others. It is only after various combinations of depression, anxiety, shame, guilt, substance abuse, eating disorders, relationship problems, parenting problems, or signs of PTSD that some of them come to the point of desperation for healing. Sometimes this complicated grief takes years, even decades to process and is often attributed to other things.

As an R.N., when I worked on a psychiatric unit, we asked our patients if they had any losses- jobs, relationships, people, pets. We never asked them if they lost a baby to abortion. Abortion is a loss that is self-induced and highly suppressed. However, no amount of denying the humanity of the unborn and elevating the rights of the mother can hide the truth that there is indeed a child lost. But there is hope for healing.

God pours out healing in many ways. The Gospel of Jesus Christ is enough to bring healing through the forgiveness of sins. But still, many women fear judgement from others and keep their abortion secret. Many women (and men) don’t completely embrace God’s forgiveness and still walk in condemnation.

How will legislators ever know the truth about how abortion effects women if the only voices they hear are those that “shout their abortion”? I believe the women who shout their abortion have denied the reality that abortion took the life of their baby. I know because I used to be in denial. It was only after years of infertility and the daily example of my two living children-direct siblings of our first baby, lost to abortion- that brought about a keen awareness of my terrible choice.

My abortion was in 1983 with my now husband. We were not married at that time and at that time, his response was permissive. After 33 years of marriage, we are finally walking in the freedom and calling that God has on our lives. Together, we now facilitate Deeper Still Retreats- where a large measure of our healing took place. We went to separate retreats for focus, but I was able to be at his retreat as a team member to minister to the women there. Most of the pictures with this post are from his retreat. Oh how God poured out His tender mercies there! 

Don’t let another day go by without receiving all that God has intended for you. His plans are to prosper you, not to harm you. He wants to bring you a hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11).

-Lisa Davis, Deeper Still of Northern Indiana Chapter Leader

The president and founder of Deeper Still, Karen Ellison, has a book coming out very soon, Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal, Freedom for the Abortion-Wounded and Help for the Church They Fear.  It will be available on Amazon soon. There is an awakening happening in our country and a hunger being stirred for those with abortion-wounds to find help and healing.

Our hearts break for those like Lisa mentioned who are in need of healing. Jesus came to bind the brokenhearted and to set the captives free. There is hope and there is help. Go to to find out more about our retreats and where one is near you. Our retreats are free of charge.

Changing A Culture to Value Life


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“Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall; he lifts his voice, the earth melts.” Psalm 46:6

Dear Heavenly Father, lift your voice through the many voices of others to change our culture to value life. Soften the hearts of your people to melt in this land. Open ears so they can hear and become torch-bearers to spread the message of life. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

This past Sunday, January 20, was Sanctity of Human Life Sunday. This is a day set apart to honor life. Sanctity of Human Life is not only about awareness of life in the womb but the need to honor all lives, whether just conceived or one-hundred and three or somewhere in between. It is about cherishing those with special needs as well as celebrating those blessed with abilities beyond our human comprehension. In essence, all life is worthy of celebration and honor, because all humans are created in the image of God. We are all image-bearers.

This past Sunday, my family and I went to the National Memorial for the Unborn in Chattanooga. It is a powerful place with a wall full of plaques honoring children lost to abortion. If you go, you will be impacted, and you won’t be able to help it. Everyone should go.

While we were there, my sixteen-year old son, confessed something…something that took great courage and trust to speak out. He told me that a couple years ago he was pro-choice, and thought women should have a right to choose whether they wanted to have their baby or not. But now he understands that it isn’t about a women’s right to choose whether or not they want to have a baby but about a life inside the womb and it isn’t right to take that life.

Somewhere between two years ago and now, his heart changed. He saw the hurt abortion caused women and men. He saw the devastation in the lives of those it impacted and he had a revelation of the value of life. I don’t know exactly how it happened, but there must have been voices that spoke truth that penetrated his heart.

This is what our world needs…voices. We need men and women freed from the wounds of abortion to stand up and speak life and truth so other young men, like my son, can hear words of truth and decide to take a stand for valuing life.

The Founder and President of Deeper Still, Karen Ellison, wrote a book that will be released soon that speaks truth, Healing the Hurt that Won’t Heal-Freedom for the Abortion-Wounded and Help for the Church They Fear.

It isn’t available yet, but it is coming soon. This book is a great tool for healing if you have had an abortion, a tool for understanding how abortion wounds, and for the church to understand what one-third of their congregation are living with and how to address this great need.

If we want our young men and women to understand and value life, it starts with us. It starts with us speaking words of life and love and compassion to those who are hurting. This is how a culture changes, one heart at a time, and then that person speaks life, and then another, until the message of love and healing is spread throughout the nations. We cannot change a culture with laws, it starts with individual hearts.


Two Things Needed for Resurrection

We cannot walk in the resurrection power of Jesus Christ without also partaking in His sufferings and even death to much of ourselves.1

“Yet indeed I also count all things loss for the excellence of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them as rubbish, that I may gain Christ, and be found in Him, not having my own righteousness, which is from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ, the righteousness which is from God by faith; that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection, and the fellowship of His sufferings, if by any means, I may attain to the resurrection from the dead.” Philippians 3:8-11

Father, as we say goodbye to another year and look toward a new year full of hope and promise, our thoughts ponder what was left behind last year and what is new to come for this year. Lord, it hurts when we suffer loss, but we are confident of the hope we have in you. Lord, we ask for your resurrection power in our lives. Resurrect what needs a resurrection in our lives this year, and what needs to remain dead, let it be.  In Jesus’ Mighty Name, Amen.

Through Jesus Christ we have the hope of resurrection power. In Romans 8:11 we are told the same Spirit who raised Christ from the dead dwells in us. That truth is potent. To say we want to experience resurrection power and the same power that raised Christ from the dead in our lives is a healthy and positive desire. However, for me personally, I hadn’t given much thought to what that really means.

Before there can be a resurrection, two things must happen. These two things are not pleasant and do not hold the same longing and desiring as the promise and glory of resurrection. These two things are suffering and death.

In the verses above, Philippians 3:8-11, Paul says he suffered the loss of all things. Wow. All. Things. He walked in great power and authority, but we must not ever think we can walk in the resurrection power of Jesus Christ without also partaking in His sufferings and even death to much of ourselves.

The cost was colossal for Paul, but the gain was greater. He gained Christ and found the truth of righteousness found in Him alone, not of himself, which is from the law. Through sufferings, Paul discovered the power of His resurrection.

Well, all that sounds good until you live it.

When we go through a suffering, there are things within us that die that need to die. Hidden sins emerge and there is a cutting off of old unhealthy patterns that need to be cut away for new life to blossom.

1 Peter 5:10 says, “But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a little while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you.”

What a beautiful promise, like a rainbow after the rain. The rain will end, and in its place will be a covering of beauty.

The process of suffering and death to self will produce beauty and the promise of resurrection power will revive all that needs to be restored. What is resurrected is always better than before. Lazarus went into the grave sick but was resurrected with full health and wellness. Jesus was resurrected into glory.

As we begin this new year, may we have this hope and confidence, that our Jesus is the Resurrection and the Life. He breathes new life. Those parts of us that needed to die, may they remain dead. Those parts that need His resurrection power, I am believing with you for new life and beauty. Amen!

On His Shoulders


Unto us a child

“For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders, and he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.” Isaiah 9:6

Father, we thank you for sending Jesus in the form of a babe in a manger. Your ways are not our ways, and your thoughts are not are thoughts. You gave us your Son, Love incarnate, in a manger…vulnerable, beautiful, lowly, humble. We have no words other to offer our sincere gratitude for your sacrifice for us, because of Your deep, unfathomable love for us. Thank you that all is on your shoulders. We adore you and offer our praise for the entirety of all that means—which is too awesome for us to comprehend. In Jesus’ Mighty name, Amen.

Isaiah 6:9 is familiar and often read during the Christmas season.

“For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders, and he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.” Isaiah 9:6

This morning as these words were spoken during church, “the government will be on his shoulders” came alive in a fresh way. Suddenly it became evident that “government” on His shoulders could represent many different things in our lives.

When looking at the commentaries on Bible Hub, there is consensus that government refers to “a great burden or weight” or possibly represents a heavy regal robe.

In this world there is much to be troubled by just as Jesus even said there would be in John 16:33.

“These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulations, but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.”  

Different people are troubled by different things. It could be our earthly government, or another country’s government. I have friends in another country who are being oppressed as a result of their government’s policies. Perhaps it is marriage or relationship troubles or even a betrayal. Government could also stand for a system or organization such as a workplace, ministry, business, or school where there is a hierarchy of authority. In all these circumstances, Jesus is the head of all of them. All of these “governments”, if you will, are the Lord’s and as such, they are all on His shoulders.

This thought brings me much comfort. To know that all of our troubles and all of our earthly systems and all that we value is His, and on His shoulders gives me a feeling of freedom and relief.

He can handle all of the troubles and issues of the world on His shoulders. We cannot. We cannot even handle the ones we know of in our little world, let alone the ginormous ones of the world such as country governments and social injustice issues. Thankful He says to give them to Him (Matthew 11:30, Psalm 55:22) and to “Be of good cheer. For I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33)

He has overcome all of it and holds all of it upon His shoulders. What is it you need to give him today? Is it your marriage? Your ministry? Your business? Your job? Your relationships (past, present or future)? Whatever the “government” is, you can rest this holiday season knowing it is on His shoulders. Just give it to Him and He will carry it. He’s a gentleman and He’ll only carry what we give Him.

What a beautiful gift from our Jesus this Christmas, the gift of His shoulders… to carry all our burdens on His shoulders.

It is one of the reasons He came. He wants to carry your weights and burdens. Will you let go and let Him carry it on His shoulders? Whatever “it” is. 


The Miracle of Restoration

This is what Jesus Christ does...this is Who He is.

“‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight, and am no longer worthy to be called your son.’ But the father said to his servants, ‘Bring out the best robe and put it on him and put a ring on his hand and sandals on his feet.'” Luke 15: 21

Most Christians are familiar with the story of the prodigal son in Luke 15. However, most Christians have not experienced this kind of amazing immediate grace demonstrated by the father in this passage. 

After my abortion, years passed and much work was needed to be done on my part in the form of Bible studies and renewing my mind to the truth of God’s Word before I could accept the miracle of Luke 15–the miracle of restoration. My restoration was not immediate. Not because God’s grace wasn’t sufficient, but because of my lack of understanding of the miraculous work of the cross of Jesus Christ. 

The sin could be abortion or any sin in your life, but what this passage demonstrates is the miraculous immediate restoration offered by the Father. There was no period of penance. There was not a period of time this son was required to feel bad about himself or carry shame for his behavior. The blood of Jesus is available immediately, there isn’t a waiting line or time requirement before accepting the price He paid for us. The difficulty is feelings of unworthiness of the gift stand between us and freedom. 

What an incredibly beautiful gift this Christmas season–the gift of restoration to a place of honor. This is what Jesus Christ does…this is Who He is. 

Oftentimes as Christians, we feel the need to carry shame and feel bad about ourselves even after we have repented. Somehow we even feel this pleases God. However, allowing shame to hold us captive doesn’t serve any good purpose. This feeling of defeat and feeling less-than is a tactic of the enemy with a voice that whispers, “Who are you? Look what you did. You will never be good enough. You are unworthy.”  

Grace must not be cheapened, and this is by no means lessening the sin of abortion. Abortion is a horrific life-taking sin. But when true repentance, sorrow, and grief over this sin occurs, it is our duty and privilege as believers to offer this grace of Luke 15 to others and even to ourselves. 

What would our lives look like if we truly lived out Luke 15? For the son in Luke 15, he knew he didn’t deserve to be restored to the place of honor as son. And legally, this father could have refused him or made him repay for all he squandered. But that isn’t the way of the kind and gentle Father. Instead, the father not only forgave and received him, he restored him to a place of honor giving him: a robe of righteousness, a ring symbolizing authority, and sandals representing that he was a son and not a servant since servants did not wear sandals at that time.  

This is the heart of the Father. If you have had an abortion or if there is another sin that has kept you in bondage to shame, guilt, and condemnation, there is hope for you today.

Will you receive His miracle of amazing grace today for yourself. He is calling you out of the darkness, to stand up, put on your robe, ring and sandals! 

Can you hear Him calling you today?

Stand up ____________.  Here is your robe, ring, and sandals. Wear them my beloved daughter/son. For my daughter/son was dead and is alive again, was lost and is found.