My heart pounded as we entered the door of Planned Parenthood. Anxiousness hovered over me like a dark cloud on a dreary day. I walked to the desk to sign in. The lady behind the counter measured up my fear and quickly suggested a pill to ease my nerves. She handed me the pill and water. Within moments, lightness overtook the heaviness of dread. I couldn’t feel. Everything seemed funny. Then my name was called…from that point on, nothing was funny.
“’Come from the four winds, O breath, and breathe on these slain, that they may live.’ So I prophesized as He commanded me, and breath came into them, and they lived, and stood upon their feet, an exceedingly great army.” Ezekiel 37:9-10
Father, as we are drawing near to the Deeper Still Training, we ask for You to bring Your chosen from the four corners of the earth and breathe Your breath of life upon them. Breathe Your life into the dry and desolate lands scorched from bloodshed. Bring forth new life and may those coming go and breathe Your life into others and may there be an exceedingly great army come out of this training. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
In Ezekial 37, Ezekial was brought to a valley full of bones. He was confronted with death and asked a question posed by God, “Can these bones live?”
As a nation, we have been confronted with death. The videos released exposing the horrific scenes from Planned Parenthood were shocking and a visual reminder of the stark reality of the monstrosity of abortion.
An alarm has sounded.
And the answer to the questions still rings…”Can these bones live?”
The answer is a resounding YES.
Jesus is still in the resurrection business. Always has been and always will be.
Every time we speak out for truth. Every time we pray. Every time we fight for the lives of these innocent ones. Every time we share our redemption story. In all of this– life is breathed and life is given.
Ezekial was told to say to the bones, “Hear the word of the Lord! Thus says the Lord God to these bones: ’Surely I will cause breath to enter into you, and you shall live. I will put sinews on you and bring flesh upon you, cover you with skin and put breath in you; and you shall live.’” (Ezekial 37:5-6)
We are the flesh God has put on the bones. He is breathing life into us and calling us to go forth and become an exceedingly great army. We have been confronted with death and it is time for us to decide how we will respond. Will we just sit back and do nothing and lay still like the dry bones in the valley? Or will we allow the Lord to breathe life into us, stand up, and say yes to His assignment?
One thing is for certain, we can no longer stay stagnant in denial.
The Deeper Still Team in having training next weekend, August 21-22 in Knoxville, TN. If you just want to learn more about the abortion wounded or how to minister to the abortion wounded, then this training is for you. If you want to start a Deeper Still Chapter or are interested in starting a chapter, this training is for you also! Men and women! We need you both! There are already about 90 people registered from 12 different states and 2 countries.
There is an exceedingly great army God is calling forth! He is waking up His people to spread His message of truth and resurrection life! Come be a part of what He is doing! If you don’t feel called to come, will you join us in the fight by praying? We need prayer warriors in this army!
“Why do the nations rage, And the people plot a vain thing? The kings of the earth set themselves, and the rulers take counsel together, against the Lord and against His anointed, saying, ‘Let us break their bonds in pieces and cast away their cords from us.’ He who sits in the heavens shall laugh; The Lord shall hold them in derision. The He shall speak to them in His wrath, and distress them in His deep displeasure.” Psalms 2:1-5
Oh Heavenly Father, we come to you today on behalf of our nation. Oh Lord, the people have indeed plotted a vain thing. The governments and rulers of our nation have created laws against You and against Your anointed. Oh Lord, we as a people have allowed them and have bowed down to the idols of selfishness and self-reliance. We have sacrificed our sons and daughters on the altars of self-interest. Oh Father, we ask for you to hear our cry and forgive us and forgive our land. We ask for You to speak and for truth to be unveiled and justice to come. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
A nurse escorted me down a long hallway and into a cold sterile room. There was a metal table. I knew immediately I wanted to leave, but it seemed too late. Then pain. Screams. Wailing. Uncontrollable tears.
Then it was over. I was no longer pregnant. In the waiting room, I knew…I knew what I had done was wrong. I had tried to convince myself that it was only tissue. I had tried to convince myself it was only a blob of nothingness. My baby was 11 weeks old when I aborted.
At 11 weeks old, she had hands, feet, fingers, and toes. Babies can be seen dancing and playing in the womb at 11 weeks old.
This is a picture of my 13-year-old son at 11 weeks gestation.
Why didn’t anyone tell me? Why didn’t I know? Would it have mattered? I’d like to hope so.
In April 2014, I went back to visit that Planned Parenthood for the first time in twenty-one years to pray healing over the land. Karen Ellison, the founder of Deeper Still and some other Deeper Still team members and long time friend, Jill Balkema, walked around the building with me looking for a spot to pray. The building had an aura of decay and death even evidenced by its outward appearance. It was as if the death that happened on the inside of the building couldn’t help but seep through and spread to the outer as a wound bleeding inside rises to the surface as a discolored and eye-sore bruise.
With the door in sight, my only thought was, “I wish I would have never opened that door. “ Then, as we prayed, the sign by the door was brought to my attention. “Care. No matter what.”
I wonder? Do they really care no matter what? What about the lives lost daily? What of the women left wounded who come into their doors? What about those standing outside crying because of a choice made years ago? If I had told them my story and how an abortion nearly destroyed me, would they had listened? If they read this post, how would they respond?
Please don’t misunderstand. I don’t blame them. It was my choice. My question is a rhetorical one. The answer…an obvious one.
Planned Parenthood has been in the news much lately as the public has gained knowledge of their practices in harvesting and selling aborted fetal tissue. Planned Parenthood received $528 million dollars last year of tax payer’s money or $1.4 million per day (Lifenews.com). Congress is in the process of trying to bring a vote to the floor to have Planned Parenthood defunded by tax dollars. Let us continue to pray for the lies to stop and truth to surface.
That day in April 2014, as we stood outside Planned Parenthood in Champaign, IL and prayed, a lady came out and asked us to leave. Did that lady care why I was outside crying? Twenty-one years of heartbreak and pain. Twenty-one years of “what if”. Twenty-one years of wishing I had never walked through that door. A twenty-year-old girl I will never see this side of heaven.
“Care. No Matter What. “? It is time for truth.
Please join us in praying for truth to prevail and click on the link below to sign the petition for Planner Parenthood to be defunded.
“Now because of this King Hezekiah and the prophet Isaiah, the son of Amaz, prayed and cried out to heaven. Then the Lord sent an angel who cut down every mighty man of valor, leader, and captain in the camp of the king of Assyria…Thus the Lord saved Hezekiah and the inhabitants of Jerusalem.” 2 Chronicles 32: 20-22
Father, we thank you that you fight on behalf of Deeper Still. We thank you that you send your angelic armies out before us and cut down every enemy scheme and tactic. We thank you that you protect Deeper Still, the Deeper Still Team and deliver your people. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
Hezekiah was a king who honored the Lord by tearing down the high places and all alters and images of false gods. It says in 2 Chronicles 31 that he did what was good and right and true before the Lord his God. In 2 Chronicles 32, it says, “After these deeds of faithfulness, Sennacherib king of Assyria came and entered Judah; he encamped against the fortified cities thinking to win them over to himself.”(emphasis added)
The enemy came to attack after Hezekiah was so faithful. We have an enemy too who may try to attack after we have done what is good, right and true. We need prayer warriors like King Hezekiah and Isaiah who will pray and cry out to heaven.
And I love how when they cried out and prayed, the Lord fought for them.
They had prepared for battle. In 2 Chronicles 32:3-7, it describes all the extensive ways they had prepared and fortified themselves to stand up under attack. King Hezekiah encouraged his armies stating, “Be strong and courageous; do not be afraid nor dismayed before the king of Assyria, nor before the multitude that is with him; for there are more with us than with him. With him is an arm of flesh; but with us is the Lord our God, to help us and fight our battles.”
The enemy “called out with a loud voice in Hebrew to the people of Jerusalem who were on the wall, to frighten them and trouble them.” Our enemy also tries to call out in a loud voice in a language we understand to frighten or trouble us. When our enemy calls, we need to cry. Not cry tears, but cry out. Our cries should always be louder and greater than the enemy calls.
King Hezekiah and his people may have been frightened or troubled. But, they were prepared and pressed on in prayer.
They prepared and pressed on in prayer. In the end, they didn’t even have to lift a spear. It says an angel of the Lord came and cut every single enemy down! Hallelujah!
Yes, we have an enemy. Yes, he is out to destroy us and make us doubt God will come on our behalf. He comes thinking he can overtake us. But, greater is He who is in us than He who is in the world (1 John 4:4). The numbers are in our favor. There are more with us. The Lord our God is with us to help us and He fights our battles. We just need to cry out, stand and watch Him be victorious!
“Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God.” Psalm 42:11
Father, the immensity of abortion can be overwhelming. The culture of death in our society seems so big and insurmountable. Our efforts even seem as if we are only throwing small stones at an enormous giant. Yet, this is not your first giant rodeo and small stones are exactly what You used to defeat the foe. Lord, thank you that nothing is too big for you. What seems as a giant to us is only one stone throw away from being overcome. We ask for You to throw the stone. Father, we hope in You. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
Only a boy named David. Only a little sling. Only a boy named David, but he could pray and sing. Only a boy named David. Only a bubbling brook. Only a boy named David and five little stones he took.
The Deeper Still team gathered in a room to pray. In a circle we lifted up our nation and the world crying out for the lies of abortion to be brought into the light and for those who advocate it to clearly see the truth. The voice of pro-choice shouted loudly as it ranted from the pages of an article read by Karen Ellison. It’s voice reminded me of another…
“And the Philistine [Goliath] said, ‘I defy the armies of Israel this day; give me a man, that we may fight together.’” 1 Sam 17:10
There are voices shouting in the world defying the living God and the armies of His people. These voices cause many to shrink back in fear. The fight seems too big, almost unconquerable. Intimidation is their intent.
However, there was only a boy who could pray and sing.
As we gathered in the room that night as a team, worshipping and praying, it occurred to me that we were much like David. We were small. We only have a little sling. We only have these stones. BUT WE CAN PRAY AND SING.
David’s battle wasn’t won with the weapons he fought with but with the courage in His heart and belief in His God. The battle was won long before He ever stepped foot onto the battlefield. The battle was won way back in the sheep field through years of singing and praying.
When we were singing and praying, we were slinging a stone into the air. Every time we cry out to the Lord with our voices, we are one stone throw closer to victory.
David refused to remain silent in the battle. He spoke up for truth. He didn’t let the voice of the enemy be the only voice heard. He shouted back at the giant…
“But I come to you in the name of the Lord of hosts, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied. This day the Lord will deliver you into my hand.” 1 Sam 17:45b-46a
We declare, as David did, to the giant and all others that are listening that God is our hope. With our voice we will stand for life and truth. And we will keeping singing and praying knowing we are only one stone throw away from victory.
“Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” James 1:4
Father, we pray for faith to rise up in the hearts of the leaders in the new and budding chapters of Deeper Still. We pray You would give them the strength and increase their faith to persevere to finish the good work you have called them to do. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
You are probably familiar with the story of the 12 spies who went into the promised land to size up the land and report back to Moses (Numbers 13:2-14:10).
And they gave the children of Israel a bad report of the land which they had spied out saying, “The land through which we have gone as spies is a land that devours its inhabitants, and all the people whom we saw in it are men of great stature. There we saw the giants and we were like grasshoppers in our own sight; and so we were in their sight.” Numbers 13:32-33
I was listening to a Pastor recently who pointed out that Moses never asked the spies to size up themselves. He only asked them to size up the land.
When we begin sizing up ourselves against what God has called us to do, we will always size up ourselves on the measuring stick of doubt.
God doesn’t ask us to measure ourselves. God sizes Himself up and He never comes up short.
What happens when we size up ourselves is that we size up the situation according to our weaknesses instead of focusing on the GREATNESS of our GOD.
This faulty focus is where the ten spies failed. Only two spies came back with a good report, Joshua and Caleb.
Caleb said, “ Let us go up at once and take possession, for we are well able to overcome it.” Numbers 13:30
Joshua said, “…And the Lord is with us. Do not fear them.”
Sadly, as we know, the Israelites didn’t listen to Caleb and Joshua. Instead, they shrunk back in fear and never entered the land God intended for them to enter and conquer.
God said, “BUT, My servant Caleb, because he has a different spirit in him, and has followed me fully, I will bring into the land where he went and his descendants shall inherit it.” Numbers 14:24
Caleb and Joshua had a different spirit…a spirit of faith instead of fear.
Caleb and Joshua persevered in their faith and the Lord gave Joshua the honor of leading God’s people into the promised land. There were still giants to face. The obstacles were still the same. However, Joshua’s faith lent him the accurate perspective that God was bigger than any obstacle.
Joshua persevered in his faith, and won the battle. However, the battle was never Joshua’s and he knew that truth. That truth was how he had the faith to enter the land in the first place. The battle was always the Lord’s. And we all know how that story ends. It ends in victory.
Our story ends in victory also. Whatever giants may be in the land, whatever battle you may be facing, God already has the story written and He never writes a bad ending. “Go up at once and overtake the land, for [you] are well able to overcome!”
“In my distress I called upon the Lord, and cried out to my God; He heard my voice from His temple, and my cry came before Him, even to His ears.” Psalm 18:6
Oh Sovereign Lord, we thank You that when we cry out, You hear us. Father, this week 8 participants are going to the Illinois Deeper Still Retreat. We cry out to You on their behalf. We ask for You to deliver them from their strong enemy and for them to be set free. In Jesus’ mighty and powerful name, Amen.
What parent does not go to his child when hearing him cry in distress? No good parent would ignore his/her child’s plea for help. God is a good parent. He is our Father. How much more will He answer when He hears His child cry in distress?
A couple weeks ago, we had the Deeper Still Retreat in Tennessee. In one word…AMAZING! Twenty-two participants were radically set free and transformed right before our eyes! When speaking to the Lord about these transformations and miracles on the mountain, I asked why we see so many miracles on the mountain. The Lord answered…Expectancy.
We expect to see those miracles on the mountain. We expect lives to be forever changed. We expect God to show up in amazing ways and do above and beyond anything we could ask or imagine. We expect to see His glory. And He never disappoints.
What if we lived life everyday with that kind of expectancy?
We can expect a mountaintop experience even when we are in a valley.
God is our Father. He is a good parent. He always hears us. He always answers.
The Lord will move heaven and earth to help His children. His love is never failing. Let’s run to our Father and expect Him to scoop us up in His loving arms and do above and beyond all we could ask or imagine in our everyday lives.
Miracles happen on more than just mountaintops.