Psalm 139:14 (NLT)
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
Last night, as my husband and I prayed with our sweet baby girl before bed, I couldn’t shake this overwhelming feeling of love and worry. Thankfully, I had just come from a church gathering. Our pastor shared a sermon about the importance of rest. He explained how we take on burdens and carry weight never meant to be ours. I immediately thought about my daughter. While I have been entrusted to be her mother, in truth, she doesn’t belong to me; she belongs to Jesus Christ.
Looking down at the most precious face I’d ever seen, I prayed that my daughter would not just know but believe she was fearfully and wonderfully made; knit together in my womb. I prayed she would trust that God knew her, loved her, and had a purpose for her long before any of us even knew she existed. I asked Him to take away my worry, to trust Him with her life. I needed to hear that sermon earlier. I needed to rest in Him. I was reminded that while it is our responsibility as parents to raise her in Christ – she is first and foremost a child of God. He loves her more than we can even fathom… So much peace follows when we humbly obey and release our cares and worries to Him.
After we kissed our daughter goodnight and laid her down, I turned on my phone and caught up on a daily devotional I have been doing with a younger cousin of mine. The study was on identity and knowing who we are and most importantly WHOSE we are. The whole day was centered on our being created as God’s masterpiece, created anew in Christ Jesus (Ephesians 2:10). It was exactly what I needed to read and hear.
Don’t you just love when He affirms your thoughts by giving you scripture to match what you were thinking and feeling? I sure do, because the following verses that came in the study sealed my prayers from earlier that evening with my daughter:
Psalm 139:13-16 (NLT)
13 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
15 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
16 You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.
I was convicted that while I have had absolutely no problem seeing my daughter in the verses above, I did not believe them for myself. I, too, was knit together in my mother’s womb, made wonderfully complex, and KNOWN before I was born; and I needed to have the confidence that my life is also recorded in His book. If I were to ever raise a girl to believe these truths, I needed to first believe them over my own life.
I’m so grateful our God is near; we just need to show up. I have been wrestling with Him for a while in regards to learning how to be a mother in His image and not of the world. I believe He has me starting at square one; believing, not just knowing, I am fearfully and wonderfully made, just like my daughter is.
My daughter is seven months old, she watches me. She will continue to look to me for affirmations, lessons, and love. I want her to know who she truly is in Christ. When she watches me, I want her to see her Mom living out God’s truth; a girl like her, made wonderfully complex and fully known by her creator!
Thank you dear Lord for conviction! Thank you for placing in my heart the desire to know you deeper and to know who I am in you. Thank you for the gift of children, no matter how they are placed in our lives. Lord, I pray that you would show us all how to be stewards of your gift of life. I thank you that you are never finished with us, that you are always with us. I pray that you would use us to rise up a new generation rooted in you. Thank you for being there to take all of our worries and cares because you care for us! It is in Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.
Today’s post was written by Traci Young, who is a contributor for the Deeper Still Devotional Blog. Traci calls Broomfield, Colorado home, and loves spending quality time with her husband, baby girl, and two red doodles. She left the workforce to become a stay at home mom and sees it as her mission field! Traci serves on the Fallbrook, CA Deeper Still team.
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